Oh Fuck!

I turn 31 tomorrow!

Yes I just realized it!  I haven’t had time to think about it because of the moving and what-not.  But now that I am, I don’t want to be 31.  I don’t know.  Its too much to handle.  Shit ass!!!

Oh man! I am freaked the fucked out!  I really need to get my shit together.  Oh man!  Whay am I freakin out.  I’ve never put much stock in age anyway.

I feel like I am going to have a painc attack.  I need to stop thinking about it.  Shit!

Stuff

Let’s see.  Moving tomorrow.  It’s gonna suck because it is suppossed to rain.  I think I should be able to get everything moved tomorrow though.  Its exciting I guess.  Just means I am that much closer to moving to Chicago.  Yeah I won’t shut up about it but I don’t care.  I am ready, well, not really.  I need to get shit together and organized/prepared for when I go up there.  I feel like all I have done was procrastinate for the past 4 years being in St.L.  My intention is to be as involved as much as possible in the art scene up there.  For income I will try to do free lance art handling/preparator work.  Which will be hard seeing how I don’t really have a reputation up there.  It will take work, networking and all that (I should myspace for this I think).  This summer I am going to choose a wide selection of galleries to submit work to then send them artists packets.  Then when I move up there follow up with them and see where that goes.  Work, save money, and pay my damn school loan.  Then after a few years purchase a building and start a residency program, that is a way aways, I am thinking 5 years.  Grad school will fuck this plan up.  But I will have the experience of working strictly on my art for 2 years which will be awesome!  But I’m not that concerned about getting into grad school because I think I will do just fine without it, I’ll just have to “hustle like ape-shit”.  Its about focus and discipline, something I feel I have been lacking.  The next six months I am going to change that.

Videos

List mania!

Weekend recap lists:

1) Ghost Rider is a shitty movie but lots of fun!

2) The new Bloc Party albumn is fucking awesome!

3) I love comics and spend way too much money on them.

4) Packing and moving sucks.

5) Yvan Attal is one of my new favorite directors.

6) A hot bath and a glass of scotch is great!

7) I still really want to be in Chicago right now.

videos of the week

New Tattoos this summer

I am planning my new tattoos and they will be these:

 A half-sleeve on one arm:

A half-sleeve on the other arm:

 

A I can’t find the excat image but some thing like this across my upper back:

Unproductive vacation

So my vacation was very unproductive due to all the hanging out with people that I did.

However I did manage to sleep 10 to 14 hours each day.  I picked up some awesome comics and a new xbox game.

Got in some quality hanging out time with A LOT of people this weekend but not much else.

No cleaning house time.  No balance my budget time.  No movie watching time.  Most importantly though, no studio time.  I was really hoping to get into my studio and working on some stuff.  I did take some pictures though.  But thats it.

This weekend I am going to buy Megabus tickets for Chicago for each month until I move up there.  I wanna get outta here!

god damn fucking shit asss!!!!!!

I want to move to Chicago sooo bad I can taste it!!!!!!

Arrrrrggggghhhh!  I don’t want to wait to hear from grad schools or until I have saved up some money! 

Its go time!

I guess its only 6 months from now, I guess I can wait. 

Ugh!

old blogs re-visited

How to date crazy girls.  A primer.

Before one embarks on the seemingly endless quest that is dating insane girls one should know this.  You will not know until after you have dated them that they are crazy, guaranteed.  So the advice I offer here is merely the things that you can do to attract them.  But a word of caution, these things are not guaranteed to work because the thing that makes insane girls insane is that they don’t know they are insane, therefore it could be some other item not presented here that will draw a crazy to you.

Lets get started shall we.

First, be yourself.  Nothing attracts the crazies more than acting like you know excatly who you are.  If you need help you can make a list of things that you like and dislike, refer to this list when you first meet a potentially crazy girl and watch the reaction.  Warning, because they are crazy they might not pick up on this for some time or might not show it.  If you have an air of confidence about yourself or act like you do an insane girl will sense it and attempt to corrupt it.

Second, know what you want in a relationship and and don’t settle for anything else.  If you can achieve this state the crazies will flock to you like vultures to a fresh kill.  Caution, being in this state has the potential for seriously injuring you life.  In this situation the crazy girl likes to work their way into a relationship with you and when you finally get the nerve to break up with them is when they attempt to run you over with their vehicles.  This is probably the most likely way to draw out the crazy in an insane girl.

Third, be a great lover.  Nothing will bring out the crazy in a girl like being a great lover.  Combined with knowing what you want in a relationship, this combination can be used to disatrous affect.

Fourth, be a sweet, nice guy.  For some strange, unexplained phenomenon insane girls are drawn to nice and sweet guys.  I wish I had a reason or something to offer as to why but the crazy mind can never be fully understood.  this should be used in junction with the first step, be yourself.

Fifth, go out of your way for them.  For the insane girl you can never do enough nice things for her.  Warning, as is the nature of a crazy they will filp on you and all those nice things you ever did will hold no sway when they are having an episode.

You know, on second thought, disregard all of the above.  Trying to explain the unexplainable, is, well, pointless.  Hopefully you will keep your wits about you and be able to spot a crazy when you meet her, and hopefully you will come out alive.

“There is no modern romance.” Hmm, Lets examine the validity of this statement.

First, for there to be a modern romance, there must have been something before. Lets call this “traditional romance”. So, if there is no modern romance that obviously leaves traditional romance. Unless, modern romance completely replaced traditional romance, which in this case I feel that is what is implied. So there is no romance at all. Is this a call for a “contemporary romance”, a “post-modern romance” if you will? Lets see.

To determine a “contemporary romance” we must examine modern romance and to define this we must look at traditional romance. What defines “traditional romance”? Webster defines romance as “a medieval narrative of the adventures of chivalric heroes.” For our purposes we must draw on the chivalric aspect. Chivlary, the bravery and courtesy of a knight. This is very romantic. The quintessential ideal of a hero, a hero that risks everything for love. This obviously evolved into what I would define as traditional. A hero that values courtesy. Specific exmples include, walking on the curb side of the side walk so the lady does not get splashed by passing cars, a process of “courting” the young maiden, showering with affection, seeking approval from the young woman’s father, the impressiveness of the “wine and dine”, the sincerness of presenting flowers, etc. . .

In comparison, a “modern romance” would be a replacement of these ideals or an updating of them. To define modern, in a romantic conotation, one must consider woman’s liberation. Did this ultimately change traditional romance? Somewhere along the way the chivalry of romance began to fall by the wayside and possibly those involved decided it best to settle for what they could get. As the world became more and more modern, individual safety also became an issue. The trust in your fellow man wasn’t there anymore and traditioal romance took another hit. Are these some of the things that define “modern romance”? Can anyone be sure?

So, “there is no modern romance.”, means an end to it all. There is no hope for romance. That the best someone can do is settle. I, for one, refuse to give up hope.

Valentine’s Day

I like to pretend that I hate Valentine’s Day for it’s obvious consumerists ideals but I secretly hold on to it for all of its romanticism.

Yes, I am a hopeless romantic.

Or better yet, not hopeless.  For hope is what I cling to.  I still believe in love at first sight and soul mates and all that. 

Naive?  Probably.  But I am okay with it.  Its kept me going this long.